As the year (and decade) comes to an end, I want to take a minute to reflect on what might be my toughest yet most transformative year yet.
People look to Instagram to see what everyone’s got going on in their lives and I just want you to realize, that’s not reality. Instagram is a highlight reel, everyone filtering, smoothing and putting their best face forward. 2019 was one hell of a year … I was challenged professionally and personally. I learned a lot about making business decisions and I ignored my gut a lot. But this is where I grew. I stopped trusting my intuition because I wanted to see the best in people.. even when those people didn’t want the best for me. With my family— I’ve never felt so close yet so far away from them. My mom has been very ill for some time now (as some of you might know from my Instagram). And then at the latter end of the year, my dad got diagnosed with lung cancer. I’ve never felt so defeated. Thankfully my tribe of friends and family rallied together and made tons of phone calls to get him the care he needed. I could not be more appreciative for the tribe I’ve surrounded myself. I could not have gotten through these past few months without them.
After reflecting on this past year and all of the lessons I’ve learned and experiences I’ve gone though, I feel tougher. I’m more ready now than ever to take on a new year, a new decade. Don’t get me wrong, 2019 was incredible. My children hit amazing milestones and we traveled to some incredible places. But I truly feel like this was a year of growth. Which takes me into my resolutions and goals for 2020.
If you guys have been following me for awhile, you’ll know that in 2018 it was “the year of the skin” and in 2019, it was “the year of the body” — where I was focused on working out. Well after the year I’ve had and the growth I’ve experienced, 2020 is about the year of Molly. And it’s not what you think. It’s about realizing what’s important to me and running with that. It’s to stop apologizing and trying to please everyone. I’m southern, so guilt just runs within me and you guys, it’s exhausting. I’ve learned this year that when I’m saying yes to a job, an event or even a friend’s birthday party … it’s saying no to my kids or my husband. 2020 is about prioritizing what’s truly important and not be taken advantage of. I am so guilty of this. I’ll do favors for people and say yes, yes and yes and then I hit a breaking point. I came up with saying this year and it’s going to be my motto for 2020: Don’t mistake my kindness for weakness. If I show up for someone, I expect them to show up for me as well. I’m making a promise to be true to my word and hold myself accountable. This year isn’t about my skin or my body, but it’s about honing in on my inner self. I finally feel healthy and strong on the outside, and now it’s time to take care of what’s on the inside.
I don’t know what 2020 has in store for us but whatever it is, I’m recharged and ready to take it on. Go big or go home!
I really hope this post resonates with a lot of you and challenges you to move forward instead of being at a standstill. Please share some of your resolutions in the comments below! Wishing all of you a very Happy New Year!